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Tuesday, March 10th, 2009
6:57 pm	Job interview I think Im going to get a job at Marina. Its just opening with its casinos and country clubs. I think Ill get a good job there. (4 Comments |Comment on this)
Sunday, March 8th, 2009
10:28 pm	Swimming I went swimming today with Bidin. It was fun. I had to borrow the lifeguards goggles though. LOL Then I went to Jurong Point with this weird man. Good thing I lost him halfway. Then another guy came and we wanted to see a movie but none were that nice so we came back to Clementi and had some yummy Japanese food. Then I went to see my abang abang and thats my day. Current Mood: full (Comment on this)
Saturday, March 7th, 2009
4:53 pm	My 3 boyfriends Iskandar I love him. I wanna marry him! Twighlight vampire I love him too. Hes hot as hell! Bidin He lives around the area so Ive always got a love close to my heart. (Comment on this)
Tuesday, March 3rd, 2009
7:05 pm	CHICKEN Thats stupid guy I was supposed to go to East Coast with stood me up. Current Mood: blah (Comment on this)
Thursday, February 26th, 2009
1:37 pm	If you're going to write STUPID comments, fuck off Reporter I think Im going to work real soon, as soon as I find my NUS, O level and A level certs. My mother is in the hall finding. Ive given up. Who are these illiterates always leaving stupid comments in my journal. I got 3 words for you.... Get a life. Printer I went with my father to IMM yesterday and now I have a new printer. Community Centre I was at Clementi community centre just now for the first time. Its quite a nice place but unfortunately its too far. Its all the way at Ave. 4, so Im thinking if I ever do need something from a community centre, Ill be going to the one at West Coast. Singing classes Im joining singing classes. My father's paying for me, or so he currently says. I hope he keeps his word, but you know him whenever money is involved. Current Mood: cranky (Comment on this)
Tuesday, July 22nd, 2008
9:57 pm	YOU! James, do you really want everyone to steal our privacy and know about our entire sex life? Goooood of everrrything~!!! weeepeeee!!!! (Comment on this)
Sunday, July 20th, 2008
2:41 am	Helping What a helping world. ;) (Comment on this)
1:51 am	Terence I went out with Terence today to eat at Swensons. I had baked rice, a sticky chewy chocolate ice-cream, and a moccachino. I wasnt full enough so I had a bowl of french fries too. Then we took a drive cause we decided to go play pool but the pool arcade was closed so we went to another part of Singapore, God knows where it is... to 7-11, to buy some drinks. We went to this place that Ive been before to relax with the drinks and then he drove me home cause he was too sleepy to think anymore. Hes a nice guy. Too bad hes not very open about his thoughts. Whole night I was wondering what he was thinking, and still didnt know. Sigh.... thats all I can say about him. Goodnight yall. Oh its Sunday. I thought I overheard someone saying it was Saturday. Sigh... Today is a free day. What do I do? Current Mood: unproductive (Comment on this)
Thursday, July 17th, 2008
8:25 pm	Geylang Went to Geylang to buy a vibrator with James. Hes a nice guy... a very skinny man, likes to play a fool with me. One minute he wants to make love with me, the next minute he forgets everything. It was unsuccessful cause that shop that I wanted to go to wasnt standing anymore. I dont know what happened to it but I couldnt find it. It either closed down, only opened at night, or was so hidden that I couldnt find it... Sigh. So I went to the second best shop around, but couldnt find anything suitable. Geez, Im so horny I dont know what to do. I want to have sex but I dont want a wrong guy. Sigh... today is such an unsuccessful day. Im so sad. Im gonna sit in my room and cry. Goodbye world. LOL, only joking. Current Mood: cold (Comment on this)
Wednesday, July 16th, 2008
11:43 pm	Fired Dont know why and I dont care. I was doing everything right but that stupid boss came and made trouble for me again. Anyway I got my pay. $100. Little but whatever. I went out with my friend tonight to Pasir Panjang. We went to several nightclubs, had vodka lime, went galavanting around, bought some cigarettes, went back to the same pub and bought a jug of rum and coke. Got severely drunk, then went home by taking a cab. It was fun. Hes a nice guy. Too bad he gets horny too easily. Zoom. Current Mood: sad (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Tuesday, July 15th, 2008
3:04 am	Sob WOOOOPEEEEEEE IM SO HAPPY :) THANK YOU WORLD, AND MOST OF ALL THANK YOU SINGAPORE. :) I HAVE MY LIFE BACK, NOW I CAN WORK HARD, FOR REAL! I DONT CARE ABOUT ANYTHING ELSE, I GOT MY EVERYTHING LIFE BACK AND IM SO HAPPY, NOW NOTHING CAN GO WRONG! *KISS THE WORLD GOOD NIGHT :) (Comment on this)
Monday, July 14th, 2008
2:27 am	Stimmonk What a nice guy.... I went to Upper Jurong Rd, to the Arena Country Club. He was there, waiting for me at the main entrance. I went swimming first. Then I went to eat at the cafeteria there. Had a few smokes. Went to sing karaoke. Went to the sauna. Had a bath.... It was nice in there, all clean and shiny, unlike my smelly toilet at home. Went back to sing karaoke, cause I couldnt stand the heat in the sauna. Then I went home. What a fulfilling day. Stimmonk is such a sweet guy. I hope we can remain friends, and see each other again. :) Hes free on Thursday. Perhaps I shall go back and play bowling with him. :) Thats all. Toodles. Current Mood: content (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Sunday, July 13th, 2008
11:30 am	Ashwin Handsome guy... Too bad I can never tell his intentions. Tall too... Cool....Sexy... Sigh. I wonder whats up with him. I went out with him yesterday night for a while. We drove around and ended up at Higher Pierce reservoir or something like that. Its very very VeRy beautiful there. We had bought some chips and an alcoholic beverage for me... and some sweets and for him, he had a soft drink. Then we drove around some more, cause there was not much to vIEw at that reservoir. Ek. Then he sent me home.... Very irritating guy too..... Thats all. Toodles. (Comment on this)
Saturday, July 12th, 2008
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12:21 pm	Heart stickers Im looking for heart stickers. :) How come last time all these nice people wrote nice comments in my journal, and now I only get foul comments..... Nobody loves me anymore! :'( (Comment on this)
Friday, July 11th, 2008
10:44 pm	ICEMAN I went out with Iceman today in the afternoon. I met him at Around 2 and we cruised around Ang Mo Kio Hub. The clothes there are amazing! And amazingly cheap too. I saw this exquisite dress for only $50! He bought some French Fries (Fattening food!) from McDonalds and we went to sit on a bench at some void deck. We were waiting for his friend to arrive. Hes friend is really good looking. He wanted to have something to eat so we went back to Ang Mo Kio Hub to a Food Court. I had a drink. Then later, we went to buy some things. Things on my shopping list! I bought a lash lengthening MASCARA. And a pencil holder..... *screams a bit* I wanted to get some teeth whitening formula but the dental clinic didnt have it. I shared so many mAnY things with Iceman. Hes such a nice friend. :) And his friend, whatever his complicated Chinese name is is such a hottie! We chatted a bit back at the void deck after all that. He suddenly wanted to bring me to a hotel.... I dont know why he would want to sacrifice our friendship after all we've been through. So I sat bye bye to him and left for home, and here I am. What a fulfilling day.... :) Current Mood: accomplished (1 Comment |Comment on this)
12:02 am	What a nice guy! I went out with Derick tonight. Hes such a funny guy. He picked me up from the void deck....And we walked over to his car. I guess he didnt want anyone seeing us together. Then we drove around a little bit...Finding our way across Singapore :P. I wanted to go to a restaurant and he wanted to go to a food centre. So we decided on Pizza Hut.... Dont ask me where. I never know. Hes funny in the sense that he kept running away from me. He walked so fast, leaving me to trail him all the way. Hehe... But hes a sweet guy. We ate pretty fast. Hawaian pizza. I didnt know that they served soup with it....Hm.. He kinda unintentionally signed that he wanted me to hurry up... So I did. Ordered a Pepsi with it. Then we went off.... Kinda a fast meeting. He drives quite recklessly but I guess he has his reasons. He said he didnt like cars honking at him cause they honk at him for no reason. LOL. Thats all.... :). My life finally has meaning.... Most of the time, I just follow guys around not knowing what in the heck is going on. But its all better now. I think Im getting smarter. :) I was actually also supposed to meet another guy. ICEMAN. But I got so confused talking to all the people at IRC, that I didnt know who was who and how many people I had 'arranged' to meet with. Sigh.... so I had to leave him stranded at my flat. He called later, telling me that he had already left for his home, so I told him that we could meet tomorrow. Thats all.... At least Im doing something with my life. No longer sitting around the coffee shop, drinking and smoking my life away. Toodles. Current Mood: happy (Comment on this)
Thursday, July 10th, 2008
2:34 pm	IMH Part 1. LOL It was quite interesting in there the first month, but when it came to the second month, things started to settle down and get boring. Firstly, I dont know why I was put in there. I was sitting peacefully in my room and all of a sudden, the police came and knocked down my door..... No, it was actually my father. He opened the door for the policemen/woman. All the while, he told me that it was the police who had the key to my door... like they have keys to all the doors for everybodys houses....and I actually believed that crap. Now hes hiding the key, thinking that Ive forgotten all about it, and wont make a spare key for me, so I when I leave my house, I have to leave my room door open for all the mice to enter. Teehee. I didnt bother entertaining them, the police officers, cause I knew that either way, I was still going to end up in the hospital or jail, or both. So I just sat there and gave one word answers....yes, no, no, no, yes, no. And after all my effort, they finally took me to jail. They didnt put me in a cell, they put me in their office.... LOL. I was unsure of what was happening, cause I kept having this feeling that I was going through all the black holes and into dark zones and light zones, whatever those are. I went to sleep some time later, and when I awoke, I had this feeling that there were strange spirits or something eating me up! It was scary, my flesh was disappearing. I ignored it and went back to sleep, cause I was getting bored as hell with all the travelling through time thing. Finally when all the madness was over (Or so I thought) and I woke up for good, they brought me to IMH. Everything seemed so fast, but it took a total of 10 hours. I was warded into Ward 34A. The same ward which Im usually 'warded' into. LOL....(Theres no such thing as warded, sorry LOL) And it was quite pleasant in there at first. Everyone was so friendly and nice. :) And the nurses were like 'If you have this problem, you talk to her. If you have that problem, you talk to the other nurse'. That was OK with me.... But then everything started to change.... Dunno why my eye kept getting spat at everytime I watched the television. And I kept walking around finding the time all the time. It was so sickening.. so the nurses were like, everytime you cant find something, you know you're trying to find the time. LOL. I met Nurul in there, the girl who always gets tied up for no reason. And she and I shared many laughs and giggles together. LMFAO. Like there was this time, she and I was playing with [female internal feeling] (Am I allowed to say that?) and it was so funny! We were both like shivering to death. HAHA! She got tied up a lot of times, but whenever I got bored, I would always go and sit next to her and accompany her by talking to her. And we would talk about Math and the solar system. LOL. There was an Indian girl...She was quite cute and whenever we passed each other, we would greet each other with a smile, but we didnt communicate further than that, cause she could only speak Tamil. There was also Ratna. I liked her best cause I could always count on her for something. But then things went wrong, and it all got sour. As for the nurses, there was Radiah.... BATMAN! LOL. Nurse Grace.....Shes was nice. Melindi... She was expecting so she was always careful about her baby. There was an Indian Muslim nurse, and she was very friendly towards me. She would give me advice about what the world was really like, and things about myself that I didnt know and so on. (Comment on this)
Wednesday, July 9th, 2008
5:49 pm	My own survey LOL.... (Taken from many entries back) would you rather tea/coffee/cocoa-coffee. warm and humid/cool and breezy-Hm..I nono. Warm and humid. short hair/long hair-LONG HAIR!!!!!!!!!!!!!! belly button ring/tongue ring-Definately belly button stud. necklace/earrings/bracelet-I dont know about jewellery. braces/crooked teeth-Braces. contact lenses/spectacles-SPECTACLES! Sat there in the bloody shop for an hour trying to put the contact len in my eye. books/internet/travel-Internet? outdoors/indoors-Right now, indoors. slow dance/fast dance-Fast dance. father/mother-Petui! platforms/flats/stilletos/chunky heels-Stilletos. candy/flowers-Hm.. thats a very good question. I dont know! drama/fantasy/sci-fi/comedy/horror-Fantasy. serial/movie-Hehe... Another good question. I do not know. ike/tay/zac-LOL....Isaac. pencil/pen-Pen. read/write-Hehe... Im too smart for myself, for myself. (Im too sexy-Right Said Fred.) cake/pie/pudding-Depends on what kind. pancakes/waffles/cereal/oatmeal-Cereal. not bathe/not brush your teeth-Not bathe. Teehee. dirty nails/dirty hair-Dirty hair. door open/door closed-Door closed. hair glitter/lip gloss/eyeshadow sparkle-Lip gloss. earrings/necklace/bracelet-... dress/pants and top/skirt and top-Dress. phone/email/messenger-*falls over* Messenger. overweight/too short-Overweight, cause I can fix the prob. drums/piano/guitar-Guitar. harmonica/tamborine/shaker-Harmonica. loner/mingler-Mingler. earthquake/tornado/storm/tsunamis-....Storm? vibration/beep-Beep. laptop/personal computer-PC. glass/mug-HAHA! Mug. candle/artificial lighting-Artificial lighting. beauty/rich/smart-Beauty. radio/tv/video/internet-Internet. cash/card-Card. not able to see/not able to walk-Oh dear.....Not able to walk. :( natural death/unnatural death-Natural death? show/comfort-???? sweet/salty/sour/spicy-Salty...................... jealousy/anger-Anger. god/devil/free-thinker-God innovator/follower-Follower. no sleep/no food-No food. Teehee. be told the scary terrible truth and live with it/continue living your perfect 'normal' false existence (eg:matrix)-False existence. boyfriend/true friend-TRUE FRIEND! :) work/study-STUDY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! fan/air-con/wind-Wind? webcam conference/face-to-face-Hm... I have to think about this one. lie/threaten-Lie. domineering/submissive-............?? polka dots/stripes-Polka dots. christina aguilera/britney spears-Xtina. daisy/rose/orchid/tulip-Rose. pork/fish/beef/chicken-Fish. juice/pop/shake-Shake. sketch/paint/cartoons-Sketch. wallpaper/paint-Wallpaper. orphanage when you're young/old folks home when you're old-Orphanage. straight/bi/gay-...Its a secret. pimples/wrinkles-Pimples. discman/receiver-Receiver. touch/sight/smell/hearing/taste-Sight. (Comment on this)
5:06 pm	How was I so smart? I read back at my previous entries, and I realise how exceptionally smart I was. Its crazy.. Im only like what... 17, 18 and I know so much about basically.... EVERYTHING! And when I try to understand myself now, I realise, I cant. I dont know how I got to be that smart. Im not that smart anymore....Most probably because Im not studying anymore... so theres nothing left to learn and my brain slowly fades away to extinction. Whats there to learn about work anyway? You just do the things you remember from what you studied, and make it practical. You dont learn ANYTHING AT ALL. If you dont learn, how do you upkeep your mental status? You just DIE. Perhaps and most likely, Im in the wrong field of work. I want to be a scientist. Ive always dreamed of it... but I was so bad at practical science... I can never figure out the experiments. Or an entrepreneur.... I would like be to that too.... But its so hard working in the business line. Ive heard about it from my friends and stuff... They say theres alot of backstabbing going on, and office politics... They tell me things different from that of what I have always believed Singapore to be. I thought it was a decent society, one where everyone is respected, and America was the place where all that gender discrimination was taking place.... BUT ITS NOT TRUE. Singapore is the one like that! :'( Why did they lie to me? Why didnt they tell me that before? Now my destiny is sitting in a puddle of one big lie. My life is all WASTED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Help me. What do I do? (Comment on this)